Thursday, May 8, 2014

Molly's Diary Day #10 + Giveaway

Day 10: Victor for the second time

Fields of Elysium
A YA romantic fantasy

“It was not my intention to hurt you. I’m sorry.”

“At least now I understand why you hate us so much. You’re scared that Terrakas would bring the same menace to Arkana. Right?”

“Tell me that I’m wrong and I’ll take your word for it.”

“I can’t tell you that. But there are good things about us, too, not just bad ones. I wish you could see that.”

“I do see that. You brought light into my darkness. Your mere existence contradicts everything I believed before. And that’s why I’m so scared of you.”

“Scared of me?”

“You see, I was so determined with my path before, but being close to you enervates me, makes me soft. I can’t afford that.” He stood up and tossed his plate into the fire. The hot coals glowed ferociously, spewing golden particles into the air.

“Victor.” That’s all I could say in an enfeebled voice. His demeanor had become rigid again. He stared at me for a moment as if he was deciding something in his head.

“Did you know that I took aim at you with my arrow at your school several times?”

“You did what!”

“I was ready to let the arrow fly if you said anything about Arkana.”

“Were you capable of killing me if I talked?” I asked, sensing the power in my voice deserting me.

“My mind was.” He paused and looked off into the darkness still dotted with shades of green and blue from the Vandesils. “My mind kept fighting against my heart because from the very first moment I saw you I knew that you would be the one to destroy me.”

“I would never hurt you.”

“You’re hurting me right now without knowing it.”

I was trying to come up with a question that wouldn’t embarrass me yet would give me some peace of mind. I didn’t care about dying from his arrow; I cared about Victor’s having to live with guilt after that. I was the one trespassing. And I was the one who messed up everything he had planned.

“How about your heart? Was your heart capable of killing me?”

“My heart?” he scoffed shortly. “Can’t you see? My heart was bleeding from the mere thought of hurting you. I could never have let the arrow fly, not even if you had talked.”

I should have been frightened, fearing for my life. I was alone, away from my home, vulnerable, in the company of someone who had wanted to kill me earlier. But all he had to say was that he wasn’t going to do it and that was enough reassurance for me.

“I wish you wouldn’t fight it,” I breathed.

He crouched in front of me and reached for my hand; but he changed his mind halfway without even touching my skin. My stomach turned from how repugnantly Victor was capable of treating me.

“Hate and love can’t be nourished in the same heart,” Victor said breathlessly, his face a mask of anguish. “In time, one will get stronger and push the other one out. Molly, you’ve grown on me too strongly already. But I’ve been nurturing hatred in my heart for so long that I am unable to let love replace it now. I need to fuel that hate against the Terrakas. … Instead it’s slipping away. I can feel it. Lately all I can think of is how you sleep at night? Do you have any nightmares? How will you wear your hair? Was anybody mean to you at school?

“See? Instead of thinking of a way to help my people, all I can think of is the smell of your hair and that small dimple on your cheek when you smile.”

I didn’t know how to react to all this. I was ready to cry for sure. It took all my strength to hold the tears from falling. I grasped the rock I was sitting on so hard that I felt pain in my bones. And I pressed my teeth together until my neck cramped. I loved Victor so much that it hurt.

“I’ll wait for you as long as you want me to,” I said, relaxing my jaw just enough to allow the sounds to escape, but still holding back the tears.

“I think you should get some sleep,” Victor said flatly. He kissed the top of my head and straightened up. “I tend to forget how long your days become whenever you come over.”

“Victor, please stay with me,” I begged, and I hated myself at once for this show of vulnerability.

“You, and your eyes, and your presence … you enchant me, making me say things I’d promised not to say to you. All these words can’t be proved with actions. I’ll just hurt you and I don’t want that. I’m sorry for letting this conversation go so deep again. I swear, I just wanted to show you that I could be your friend. But I failed. Again.”


“Please, don’t say anything. I’m already too close to changing my mind and throwing myself into your arms. But trust me; it’s better this way.” He looked away, eyes tight, brows creased.

I leapt to my feet in panic; I was not ready to let him go yet. I was dying inside. With my heart in my throat, I seized his wrist and pressed the music on his watch. Luck was on my side. Instead of fast beats, slow and sensuous music sounded through the calmness of the night.

Victor looked at me with eyes that made my knees tremble and I had to gather all my courage to say the next few words. “Dance with me … please. Dance with me the way you did with that girl in the woods.”

Written and illustrated by A.B. Whelan

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I'm a Hungarian born American writer, who was lucky enough to travel Europe, Africa, and The Middle East and live in Ecuador, Crete and Italy. I graduated as a computer engineer, thus if anybody tells you math and literature can't walk hand in hand, don't believe them. *smile* I'm the author of the Fields of Elysium saga, which I like to call a young adult romantic fantasy. The first book of the series was inspired by amazing movies like Dirty Dancing, Avatar, and Twilight and earned praise from prestigious review companies and readers. I'm currently working on book three and four, and planning to write one more novella to finish the series, dedicated to another very interesting character in my story, The Prophet, the mysterious leader of the Arkanians. Find me on Social sites. Friend me. Follow me. Message me. I love to connect.

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